It's been a very long time since I've written an update. One reason is that barely anyone knows about this website right now, so it doesn't matter too much. But the main reason is because a couple months ago, this project came to a crashing halt.
Back in August I had gotten sick with the worst (and only) case of bronchitis I'd ever had, just as Josh began sending me the final mixes to approve. For several weeks there was much anguish over the mixes (not fun on top of being sick), but we worked through it and almost reached the finish line. The mastering was booked and we had just one song left to finalize in the mix. But when I heard the last song I was severely disappointed with the way I had sung it. I immediately tried to re-record it at home, but was still sick and there was only so much I could do. I could not bear to release the song with those vocals because I knew I would always, always regret it. I was emotionally wrecked at this point; I cancelled the mastering and took a couple weeks off from the project to get some perspective, and to recover physically as well as emotionally.
Over the last couple months I've had great difficulty trying to re-track the song on my own. It's been nearly impossible to diffuse the stress and get back to a place of simple singing from the heart. In addition, I've been dealing with anxiety from a personal matter which often ruins the mood for me when I'm trying to sing. Eventually I was forced to take a month off due to slight injury of my vocal chords as well as getting sick yet again.
During the month off I started listening to the instrumental track in the car and singing along, and that has been helpful. I was even able to get excited about the song again due to the awesome musicians who played on my song.
It's probable that my best ever performance of the song will occur at some point when the record button is NOT on. But I'm ok with that, so long as I can get a version down that I'm ok with releasing. They do say, after all, that "art is never finished, only abandoned."
Onward and upward...
Back in August I had gotten sick with the worst (and only) case of bronchitis I'd ever had, just as Josh began sending me the final mixes to approve. For several weeks there was much anguish over the mixes (not fun on top of being sick), but we worked through it and almost reached the finish line. The mastering was booked and we had just one song left to finalize in the mix. But when I heard the last song I was severely disappointed with the way I had sung it. I immediately tried to re-record it at home, but was still sick and there was only so much I could do. I could not bear to release the song with those vocals because I knew I would always, always regret it. I was emotionally wrecked at this point; I cancelled the mastering and took a couple weeks off from the project to get some perspective, and to recover physically as well as emotionally.
Over the last couple months I've had great difficulty trying to re-track the song on my own. It's been nearly impossible to diffuse the stress and get back to a place of simple singing from the heart. In addition, I've been dealing with anxiety from a personal matter which often ruins the mood for me when I'm trying to sing. Eventually I was forced to take a month off due to slight injury of my vocal chords as well as getting sick yet again.
During the month off I started listening to the instrumental track in the car and singing along, and that has been helpful. I was even able to get excited about the song again due to the awesome musicians who played on my song.
It's probable that my best ever performance of the song will occur at some point when the record button is NOT on. But I'm ok with that, so long as I can get a version down that I'm ok with releasing. They do say, after all, that "art is never finished, only abandoned."
Onward and upward...